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February 28 RamblingsTonight I drove half an hour to go to Chapters, sit amongst the books, and forget about everything.
Not that everything is so terrible, just that sometimes you need to set it all aside for a bit, y'know?
So I leafed thru some ee cummings (what a sexy beast, honestly) and some art books, a David Sedaris book, a cook book and a gorgeous photography book, and felt better for it.
Something about books makes me peaceful. They're interactive, but the interaction is only between yourself and the book, whatever you make of that.
And yes, I know I'm a nerd. I'm okay with it, honestly.
I've been a bit out of sorts this week. Don't know why really---on paper, everything is great. Kinda one of those "everything and nothing" things...things just don't feel right. Off kilter. Maybe its the February blahs, or the fact that it's snowed every g.d. day this month...or maybe I need some time off, or I need to quit thinking, or I need a kick in the ass. Not sure.
It's just......you know when something that would ordinarily tickle your fancy rubs you the wrong way? "Oooh, a kitten!" says Tuckle on Saturday. "Oh. A kitten" says Tuckle on Monday...what's the difference except the passing of some time? Hell if I know...and I'm rambling now folks, so things should get interesting in a moment.
Or maybe it's like when you learn to ride a bike.....there you are, your dad running behind you holding onto the seat to keep you balanced, you telling him not to let go...then you get half a block, realize he's not keeping you balanced,think "Oh shit, I'm riding this bike by myself", and you fall, break your leg, and never ride a bike again. Hahah, okay, maybe not that dramatic, but you know what I mean. Or maybe you don't. Doesn't matter anyway.
I have more regrets than can I can count on my fingers and toes...more regrets than I could count on your fingers and toes combined with my fingers and toes, even. Some of them are very old now. I wonder if regrets age like dogs do, 7 years to every human year? Gah, I have senior citizen regrets! Quite an accomplishment, really. Maybe some of them will get Alzheimers and die soon.
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I'd like to go away somewhere and not be me, just for a bit.
I probably couldn't get far enough away, honestly. But there'd be one heck of a homecoming party.
February 27 the green eyed monsterChantalle and I are envious of each other, for completely opposite reasons.
But, we're happy for each other. So it's all working out okay. February 25 Another bebe is bornCongrats to M&S, who welcomed Makayla into their lives earlier this week. Good on ya, she's gorgeous! I hear Owen is less than thrilled about being a big brother.....trust me, having a sister isn't really something you can recover from, Owen.
Not MyselfSuppose I said I am on my best behavior And there are times I lose my worried mind Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? Suppose I said Colors change for no good reason And words will go From poetry to prose Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? And I, in time, will come around I always do for you Suppose I said You're my saving grace? 10 Things I Am Today
February 24 Conversations with Beardo, the CAT LUVR-----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 11:34 AM To: Beardo Bowling for charity tonight, then I think a bunch of us are going out for
dinner. How about you? When is your wife coming back? -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:41 AM To: Tuckle She's back on Friday night.
So tonight will be hockey and cat loving. I did do something cool last night. I figured out how to stream video, MP3's and pics from my computer to my Xbox 360 so I can watch/listen to stuff on the big screen now. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 11:44 AM To: Beardo CAT LOVING....Beardo, you perv!
That is cool. I wouldn't have the first clue how to do that. Not that I have an Xbox. Or a big screen. -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:45 AM To: Tuckle It was actually really easy. I was quite surprised at how easy it was. I
didn't know how to do it until a magazine told me. I'm not a perv. Our cat will be bugging me all night and walking on me etc....she's desperate for attention with my wife gone. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 11:48 AM To: Beardo A magazine told you how to do it? Where can one procure one of these talking magazines? Are there talking magazines on a lot of topics, or just streaming? -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:50 AM To: Tuckle You are a jerk.
Yes a magazine instructed me with text on how to do it. I'm sorry, I didn't realize that you were the freaking literal police today. Uh oh everybody....I hear sirens. The literal police is on the scene. Tuckle is her name, you better not commit a literal felony.
-----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 11:57 AM
To: Beardo Takes one to know one, sucka.
You know this is going in the blog. -----Original Message-----
From:Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:58 AM
To: Tuckle I figured you'd put it in your blog. Lord knows the blog viewings go sky
high when beardo has anything to do with it. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 12:28 PM
To: Beardo Pfffft.....if it does go sky high, that's because you're busy looking at
it. "Look at me, I'm famous!" says Beardo -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 12:40 PM
To: Tuckle I don't think that's the case!
-----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 12:48 PM To: Beardo Why does it happen then?
-----Original Message-----
From:Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 12:50 PM To: Tuckle Because Beardo = ratings. Plain and simple.
In other exciting wonders......I want to know when you are going to shave your head like Britney. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 12:52 PM To: Beardo Pffft.....big talk from a cat lover.
FYI, *I* shaved by head before Britney. She was copying me. -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 12:55 PM To: Tuckle You did not!
I think you should though. You too can be like your idol. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 12:56 PM To: Beardo How do you know I didn't do it?
Besides, I'm funny enough looking without shaving my head, you jerk -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 1:04 PM To: Tuckle Well you do raise a point about the not shaving your head :)
I just know you didn't do it. I'm smart. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 01:09 PM
To: Beardo You bastid, you didn't have to agree with me!
I don't know how smart you are....magazines have to tell you how to do stuff. -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 1:14 PM To: Tuckle Stuff like that yes.....because without knowing about that file, I wouldn't
have been able to pull it off. After it told me where to get the file I needed, I did the rest myself. So really it was just pointing me in the right direction....the technical stuff I did myself. -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 01:25 PM
To: Beardo Did the magazine tell you to make nachos with cheese?
Are you getting mad at me Beardo? -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 1:26 PM To: Tuckle No I'm not getting mad. I can't be mad at people who are less tech savvy
than somebody else like myself :) -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 01:31 PM To: Beardo You're such a butt!
But, good one, Beardo. You finally made a funny! -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 1:34 PM
To: Tuckle Ahem.......finally? finally made a funny?
I make funnies all day long, you just don't understand my humour! Take that weirdo! -----Original Message-----
From: Tuckle Sent: February 21, 2007 02:00 PM
To: Beardo Oh, I understand your humour alright. It's just not funny.
Sorry kiddo. -----Original Message-----
From: Beardo Sent: Wednesday, February 21, 2007 2:01 PM To: Tuckle You're just mean. February 23 Ya, we's busy-----Original Message----- From: Tuckle Sent: Friday, February 23, 2007 1:53 PM To: Sista Subject: RE: order
Note to self: it is not polite to ask ROT, when he says he's going home for lunch, if he's actually going home to beat the meat.
-----Original Message----- From: Sista Sent: Friday, February 23, 2007 1:54 PM To: Tuckle Subject: RE: order
I wouldn't say its wrong to ask...i mean, what else would a guy named ROT be going home to do? Slap himself with raw hotdogs and blah the bongos?? Pfft, whatever.
-----Original Message----- From: Tuckle Sent: Friday, February 23, 2007 2:07 PM To: Sista Subject: RE: order
That's exactly what I was thinking. When he comes back I bet he'll look all ashamed and sh*t...and he'll smell like wieners.
-----Original Message-----
What a jerk. You should send him this email as a polite way to let him know that we know what he gets up to at home. I bet he uses the raw wiener as a microphone. *pig* February 21 Make a decisionSometimes I think we don't
so much make choices,
as fall into situations and
just stay there.
Complacency.
Laziness.
Fear.
February 14 Don't hate the playa; hate the gameTuckle is a very lucky girl.
Thanks for the fleurs, Putt-Putt!
And happy Wednesday (from what I gather, most of you are against Valentine's Day) to all y'all! February 09 I got tagged---I hope it's not contagiousFor Darklight. You dirty tagger you ;)
THE LOVE SURVEY
1. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
Not love, no. Lust, fo sho.
2. COURTNEY LOVE OR JENNIFER LOVE HEWITT?
Howsabout Tonya Harding? Now there's one hot chiquita! I love her various hair scrunchies.
3. IF YOU WERE A CANDY HEART, WHAT WOULD YOUR SAYING READ?
Bite me. Hard.
4. IF YOU LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH, WOULD YOU GET THEIR NAME TATTOOED ON YOUR BODY?
Not a farking chance. Tattoos are for idiots (sorry, all you tattoed folk).
5. DO YOU THINK LOVE HURTS OR STINKS?
Both, at one time or another.
6. WHO DO YOU LOVE ENOUGH THAT YOU WOULD TAKE A BULLET FOR?
My cat. Oh wait, she's already dead....RIP dead homey
7. DO YOU KNOW WHAT LOVE IS?
I'm learning. It's not like you can take a class on it....or can you? I'll check out DeVry's site...
8. HAVE YOU EVER HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN?
Yessir I have, but the doctor said it will heal itself.
9. CINNAMON HEARTS OR HEART BOX OF CHOCOLATE?
Chocolate. Cinnamon hearts are gross.
10. HAVE YOU EVER USED A DATING SERVICE?
I've used and escort serv....nevermind, you prying sod!
11. WHAT ARE YOU MOST ATTRACTED TO IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Sense of humor. And no tattoos.
12. WHAT TURNS OFF THE ATTRACTION FOR YOU?
Toe hair.
13. DOES JOANIE LOVE CHACHI?
Hell yes, of COURSE she does. Chachi is hawt.
14. EVER PLAY 'SPIN THE BOTTLE' OR '5 MINUTES IN THE CLOSET'?
It's been a few weeks since my last game of either, but yes. I have played.
15. TO RUSSIA WITH LOVE OR THE SPY WHO LOVED ME?
WTF? Those sound like old people movies.
16. HOW COULD SOMEONE PROVE THEIR LOVE TO YOU?
By not asking me to do a Love Survey
17. IS THERE ANYBODY YOU KNOW WHO LOVES YOU, BUT IS TOO AFRAID TO TELL YOU?
I don't think they're afraid...
18. WHAT DESSERT DO YOU LOVE THE MOST?
Chachi a la mode. What, it's a real dessert. Is too. Okay, I made it up, but it COULD be real. It'd probably have marshmallows in it. Or coconut.
19. WHAT DO YOU LOVE THE MOST, BACK RUBS OR FOOT RUBS?
My feet are uber ticklish and I tend to kick. So if you're into that...
20. WHAT IS YOUR MOST FAVOURITE LOVE SONG?
Too many to choose from... two I like are Lover Lay Down and Come Away With Me
21. NAME 5 PEOPLE YOU LOVE, THAT YOU WILL TAG?
Sherman Helmsley, Fantasia Barrino, Larry Byrd, Howard K Stern and Lonnie the Magical Little F*ck This is how it worksThis is how it works You're young until you're not You love until you don't You try until you can't You laugh until you cry You cry until you laugh And everyone must breathe Until their dying breath No, this is how it works You peer inside yourself You take the things you like And try to love the things you took And then you take that love you made And stick it into Someone else's heart Pumping someone else's blood And walking arm in arm You hope it don't get harmed But even if it does You'll just do it all again February 07 A snippet of the day..
-----Original Message----- From: Sista Sent: Wednesday, February 07, 2007 10:49 AM To: Tuckle Subject: RE: ORDER
Remember when you were a kid and you posed for the Sears catalogue? Yeah, I don't' remember that either.
-----Original Message----- From: Tuckle Sent: Wednesday, February 07, 2007 11:07 AM To: Sista Subject: RE: ORDER
I remember when you were in a Jello commercial. Mom spent all the money you earned from it on rum and crochet magazines.
-----Original Message-----
I REMEMBER THAT TOO *RIP JELLO MONEY*
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Funny, I'm pretty sure the same thing happened to Evan Dando. *RIP EVAN DANDO* February 06 Oh yaDid I mention that I won the Super Bowl pool at work?
I won $100.
I'm a hundredaire! February 04 Sunday, SundayAhhh, what a relaxing weekend.
Friday night I had dinner with the McHugh's--more importantly, that meant I got to see Logan, who's growing so fast. He's very interactive now; smiling, laughing (oh gosh, the belly laughs coming out of this kid are hysterical! Unless the little cuss is laughing at me cuz I'm funny looking...)and cooing. Very, very cute. And I'm very,very glad I get to enjoy him for a short while, and then go home where no one will throw up on me. He super puked on me twice--first on my pants, then on my sweater. Points for accuracy, wee man.
Yesterday morning I ran some errands, and spent the remainder of the day at home. Exxxcellent. Just what the doctor ordered.
It's fricken cold out. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't so windy---cripes, the wind can go eff itself.
I watched "Little Miss Sunshine" today. I enjoyed it. "Again with the fucking chicken?" hahah, you can be sure I'll be saying that often.
Some pictures of Logan--I totally have to get a new camera. Half a second before the first picture was taken he was grinning from ear to ear, but the red eye startled him, and it takes too damn long to actually take a picture. Stoopid camera. |
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